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I touched the smoke as I woke up from this dark place.
People were screaming their hearts out. 
The man's eyes beside me were looking blindly on this hot mess he's holding.
"Another available seat here" - in fact, a lie.
Then, it ran...only to stop after five minutes.
It was a routine and people were used to it.
It was not exactly my cup of tea but I managed.
Looking at another strangers face on this time
It was refreshing at first, at second, at third
On fourth, it was tiring.
Some things were mind boggling
This girl can't even characterize what is real or isn't
Nothing changed.
Today though, I miss you.
I miss your noise.
I wanna drown in your voice

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Twenty Seventeen was definitely a beautiful disaster.

It was a year of being lost into the wilderness and finding yourself back home. First half of the year was pretty much mundane and eventful at the same time. I started going to local indie music events. Discovered Ang Bandang Shirley + Tom Story (probably already listened a hundred times to their music ; showers, travels, private time, sleeping... you name it hahaha). Managing my time while working (on a shifting schedule). 

After a while of working, I eventually quit my first job of being a microbiologist. Mainly because I wasn't entirely happy with the my work environment (production). Not my workmates or anything but the entirety of what I am doing. I love microbiology, I really do. I realized I liked studying them and discovering things. I'm not really the type to enjoy routine task regarding my field of study. I have always wanted excitement - whatever it is. 

On top of that, my visa for going to Japan to be with my mom got approved so I immediately booked a plane ticket. I stayed in Tokyo for about a month. That was the longest vacation I've ever had with my mom. It was so worth it. 

Then I went back here in my homecountry. Applied for jobs I didn't really wanted to do - all because I've been too afraid to be a disappointed and a bum in the family. And the the twist - I've been rejected to the jobs I applied for. Lol. Interviews were a great experience though. So I'm still thankful for the opportunities. I always get interviewed but not get hired. They probably sensed I don't really wanna work for them. 

More depressing things happened in the month of October-November. But it was also the time that I leaned to God and my faith for him grew even MORE. He just saved me from the pit of darkness and I saw the light. The real purpose of my life have been found........ I was home. 

My past self wouldn't even believed where I am now and what I am doing with my life.I am sure she will be proud.I have grown more, and I like seeing different perspective now. There's so much more to life than being just one thing. 

God has a plan for all of us. Let your life be directed by Him and everything will fall in the right place. Never stop dreaming and keep your faith. 

Whoever you are that is reading this, I just wanna say Thank You for being part of such an amazing year. I wish you all the best this 2018.

Happy New Year, folks! 
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Kamakura Adventures (Part2)

As mentioned on my previous post, I'm trying to experiment with hues and saturation at lightroom with the photos I took in Hase-dera. I actually quite like it... so I will probably be doing this for the rest of my photographic exploits.

We went to Hase-dera temple after visiting Kotoku-in Temple. The place is a haven for photographers because of the authentic temples and also during our visit, the hydrangeas were in full bloom. 

You actually have to hike to see all the beauty of this place because it belongs to a hill. It's really a good day trip because you  can enjoy nature. It also has underground temple called the Benten-Kutsu Cave (don't expect photos here though because my camera does not function well on low light ; it's disrespectful to use flash because the place was very solemn)

While going up, you'll see all these different statues and shinto shrines.

Right before reaching the top, you can make wishes here at Kakigari Inari Shrine.

When you reach the top of the hike, you'll see the beauty of the place and Sagami Bay.  I used to only see this kind of view in Japanese movies...

It's just so cool how every houses and building seems to be color coordinated with the ocean. This is probably one of the favorite photos I took during our trip.

then... when you're feeling tired from the hike, you can chill at the main place where all these temples belong and a little park overviewing Kamakura prefecture.

They even have cooling steam (notice that smoky thing on this picture on the left) , because we went there during summer.

What a beautiful place... you can't have this anywhere else but Japan.

Love, always.
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